Relient K

Title: My Girl's Ex Boyfriend

Album: Mmhmm

When he was seeing her
You could see he had his doubts
And now he's missing her
Because he knows he's missing out
Now it's haunting him
The memories like a ghost
He's so terrified
Cause no one else even comes close

He's a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake he made back then
I owe it all to my girl's ex-boyfriend

So then, along comes me,
This undeserving mess (undeserving mess)
Who would believe my life
Would be so blessed (life would be so blessed)
Two years ago
He left all that debris (left all that debris)
Who would of known
He would leave everything I need

He's a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake he made back then
I owe it all to my girl's ex-boyfriend

If it wasn't for him
I would still be searching
If it wasn't for him
I wouldn't know my best friend
If it wasn't for him
He would be able to see
If it wasn't for him
He would be as happy as me

When she and I settle down you can bet
That he is going to have to settle for less
He's someone that I would hate to be
I got the girl and he's left with just the memory.

He's a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake he made back then
I owe it all to my girl's ex-boyfriend

If it wasn't for him
I would still be searching
If it wasn't for him
I wouldn't know my best friend
If it wasn't for him
He would be able to see
If it wasn't for him
He would be as happy as me... XD XD

Deathbed 13th September 2010,9.07pm

Breathing In New Mentality~

5th August 2010

(First Sight…..)

I could be right or wrong in a short distance…

Statements of me telling the world how much things change…

In a glance without getting noticed…

Never knew this might be another sorrow…

Spending the whole night examining my own mind…

Assuring the strong will that never existed…

Moments of feelings run deep my bone cheek…

Just of knowing your there alone…

It’s time to let go…

Maybe yes… maybe no…

Why do I even want to bother at first…

Or I’ll just walk away knowing nothing happened before…

The nervous and hatred feelings just got swept away…

I knew it was peaceful to be around your presence…

The other side just showed the part of agony….

Wish then I could be your guardian angel…

But for not letting go won’t prove anything sincere…

So I’ll stay put in a corner with the chains on my hand…

Cause we knew we’re not meant to hurt each other…

Just a little faith in hope…

Staring and glaring…

Nothing but an empty jar stuck in hade…

The prevailing winds still tells a different story…

There goes the time flies…

If there is care… I would give myself a change again…

If there is laughter… I will plant in your heart…

If there is pain… I will heal that wound of yours…

If there is love… I will give myself another chance to let it all out…

You remain strong… don’t give up…

Let lose and holding to a grip that shows mercy…

If we never make it there…

In the end it’s just another chapter to be profound…

Deathbed 12.11pm, 3^rd August,2010.

Hope

Well.. this is it.. First Tattoo done on 22/03/2010. Took me quite a while actually for me wanting a tattoo quite badly then. But thinking that my parents would surely murder me for this now. No turning back then.. Theres a reason for all of this now.. Just not having confidence in any tattoo artist yet before this.. My tattoo concept is based on fine arts shading style. Realistic's the word. So, I finally found a tattoo artist that suits my taste of art! By the name of Bobby James from Sabah.. Owns a tattoo shop here.. know him through Jerry Johnny. It was a long story then. "Hope".. why hope? Its nothing more to say then.. the world knows what is happening around myself. I was always loosing hope and this time was just too much to take in anymore.. its always this word that keeps me going all this while.. The past and the present. Whats running on my mind during the tattoo process was just her image and I can't figure out why but I just didn't realize the pain when the process of tattoo is on going. It took me 4 hours to endure all this pain anyways..

So Its a cross tattoo with a word hope.. So I'll always remember the day that all make sense of myself of all the happening. I'm really satisfy and happy to have this tattoo done. It was the most awful pain I ever experience then piercing through my skin especially the ribs part. My next plan of tattoo to get is Jesus's face with torn crown on my right chest. After that, next is a touch up on the cross part surrounding by doves and roses. After all is done, I'll get my left side chest and ribs finish with Angel's with instruments like trumpets flying around shinning. I have all this imaginations in mind now. I know Bobby could make this up for me.. I trust his art skills. 10 years experience? SICK! Back of my body.. maybe too but far from time then. It would be a long planning as I save up lots of money.

So.. this hope tattoo will stay on me for the rest of my life.. No regrets for this. Im loving It so much. Taking care of It like its my wife now hahaha! Theres just no limits in art.. Ima art lover.. So I want It on my body now.. For as long as I live.. I'll live seeing myself as an art form with arts of wisdom and faith. The main thing is having god in my life that I always not lose hope in him.

Its not easy to let go of something that you treasure for so long then.. but If she's not for you to hold anymore then whats the purpose anymore.. I guess I have to be strong for this time. (Finally Getting In My Head huh....) Yea.. surely.. everything would be fine for now.. I won't hurt myself anymore.. Its just about the pain for art that I'll be enduring then. But the main thing is.. nothing can compare to the pain of losing someone you love so deeply. So still.. this tattoo pain is nothing for me after all..

Deathbed 24th March 2010, 3.36pm