Hope

Well.. this is it.. First Tattoo done on 22/03/2010. Took me quite a while actually for me wanting a tattoo quite badly then. But thinking that my parents would surely murder me for this now. No turning back then.. Theres a reason for all of this now.. Just not having confidence in any tattoo artist yet before this.. My tattoo concept is based on fine arts shading style. Realistic's the word. So, I finally found a tattoo artist that suits my taste of art! By the name of Bobby James from Sabah.. Owns a tattoo shop here.. know him through Jerry Johnny. It was a long story then. "Hope".. why hope? Its nothing more to say then.. the world knows what is happening around myself. I was always loosing hope and this time was just too much to take in anymore.. its always this word that keeps me going all this while.. The past and the present. Whats running on my mind during the tattoo process was just her image and I can't figure out why but I just didn't realize the pain when the process of tattoo is on going. It took me 4 hours to endure all this pain anyways..

So Its a cross tattoo with a word hope.. So I'll always remember the day that all make sense of myself of all the happening. I'm really satisfy and happy to have this tattoo done. It was the most awful pain I ever experience then piercing through my skin especially the ribs part. My next plan of tattoo to get is Jesus's face with torn crown on my right chest. After that, next is a touch up on the cross part surrounding by doves and roses. After all is done, I'll get my left side chest and ribs finish with Angel's with instruments like trumpets flying around shinning. I have all this imaginations in mind now. I know Bobby could make this up for me.. I trust his art skills. 10 years experience? SICK! Back of my body.. maybe too but far from time then. It would be a long planning as I save up lots of money.

So.. this hope tattoo will stay on me for the rest of my life.. No regrets for this. Im loving It so much. Taking care of It like its my wife now hahaha! Theres just no limits in art.. Ima art lover.. So I want It on my body now.. For as long as I live.. I'll live seeing myself as an art form with arts of wisdom and faith. The main thing is having god in my life that I always not lose hope in him.

Its not easy to let go of something that you treasure for so long then.. but If she's not for you to hold anymore then whats the purpose anymore.. I guess I have to be strong for this time. (Finally Getting In My Head huh....) Yea.. surely.. everything would be fine for now.. I won't hurt myself anymore.. Its just about the pain for art that I'll be enduring then. But the main thing is.. nothing can compare to the pain of losing someone you love so deeply. So still.. this tattoo pain is nothing for me after all..

Deathbed 24th March 2010, 3.36pm